September 2010
When i look in the mirror
i see disgusting weird beady eyes awkward hair that does nothing for me a retarded face shape that looks weird from all angles hideous teeth and not a pretty mouth
i hate that i see all these things, i really do. i want to believe that i am beautiful, that i can love myself….but i cant. i just cant, and how am i supposed to love someone else. when i cant even love myself.
August 2010
that night was a mistake....
……but at the same time, i dont think it was
i want to look at someone like i’ve never looked at someone before, to look at them and take them ALL in, notice everything about them, to adore them in a way i’ve never adored anyone before.
“this is life and pain is just a simple compromise so we can get what we want out...”
you have to love something before you can hate it
So long sweet summer
you’ve treated me well. theres been tears, laughs, blood, drunken states, long drives, and so much more. i will truly miss you. i’ve hung out with amazing friends and had an amazing time and just in a few hours it’ll all be over.
Day XV — The person you miss the most
Nicholas G. Rettig; June 25th was the last time i got to see you, speak to you, or hear from you. your gone for 2 years and in a few days 3 months will have gone by. its hard to think that its been 3 months since i’ve last seen you. but ill be counting down the days till i turn 18 so i can come see your beautiful-golden teethed-face.
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Day XIV — Someone you’ve drifted away from
everyone in my old life; to all of you i used to talk to, to those who were in my old life. i miss you dearly. but i know longer talk to anybody in the past which is a shame but shit happens. and that shit so happened to be my old friends. so fuck all of you i dont care enough to write you a stupid ass heart felt “letter”
ask me something, bitches →
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake....
Day XIII ; Someone you wish could forgive you
i’ve been staring at this blank post for about 10 minutes.
no thoughts.
I think that possibly maybe I'm falling for you
Day XII — The person you hate most/caused you a...
Theodore Cade; you fucked up my family and you fucked up my life and for that i hate you. i wish someone would do the same thing to you, that you did to my family.
So sorry for the person I became. So sorry that it took so long for me to change. I’m ready to be sure, I never become that way again ‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
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August 16, 2010
went to tipp city and hung out with anthony all day, he showed kelsey and i around the beautiful town of tipp. it was really small but very cute. i liked it.
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Sunday morning rain is falling Steal some covers share some skin Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable You twist to fit the mold that I am in
im not sure what i should do about this. i like you, your one of my close friends and i mean my mind has drifted to a place where we’re together. but i dont know if i could go through with it, you mean so much to me and im not ready to take that risk. but at the same time i want to take it so badly. so im stuck here. debating on being safe or taking a leap of faith.
Day XI; A deceased person you wish you could talk...
Great uncle mike; You were hilarious, you made me life more than anybody could make me laugh in my whole family. When i found out you died…i didnt cry. all i could say was “oh…how?” maybe i was to young, to understand it fully, but then again i was 10 or a few years older. so who knows why i didnt cry, why i wasnt affected so much by your death, because you were a nice,...
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i enjoy the sound of silence
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